I'm half-banana, half-malay

Yesterday (friday) , I was doing my calls around KL, and I get this quite often, especially with matured- Malay women. The question they asked: " Kamu ni Melayu ke, Cina?" . LOLx. And my reply was always: "Cina". I got 2 different person asking the same question yesterday. A few other times previously.  :P

And then I thought to myself, am I really Chinese? I don't know how to speak Mandarin, only broken-Canto, mostly English and Malay to my Malay friends.  Now, I know what I need to do, I MUST LEARN MANDARIN. Not as a selfish personal goal, but more of a need to feel my roots and to connect with Mandarin-speaking people (not everyone speaking Mandarin is Chinese, k)

Actually, I know a few Mandarin words, I've been to classes before, but I never really utilize it because I was afraid ppl might misunderstand what I said and dont ask for clarification. It would make me embarrassed to go on talking with them not understanding...if u know wat i mean....

So, I've made a commitment to LEARN and PRACTISE Mandarin~ yea~ so I need all of ur support~!

TQTQ,

YJ

After Advance experience

Well, well, well, Im pretty much excited after finishing my Asiaworks Advanced course. To me, the advance was all about letting go and knowing who I am. The few adjectives which would best describe my experience are SPONTANEITY, PASSION and RESPONSIBILE. I have to constantly challenge myself to outdo myself in every aspect. The one person I would really want to thank is Diane who never gave up on me an enrolled myself. And trust me when I said that I was a resistant fighter~ haha~ everything she said, I tried to deny it~ but in the end, I went ALL IN~ gave a 100%, experienced the program and it made me realized a lot of things I took for granted. 

Every day is a new challenge. Think of it as an opportunity to create something good.  Be all that you can ~

With love and respect, 

YJ

2nd post CNY/goodbye/asiaworks

Well, its been another week, a tough one indeed. CNY and cousin sis' wedding. Angpows, angpows, angpows,,,,ahh...missed the smell of new money.  However, the money seems insignificant now tat im working~.Nevertheless, extra pocket money is good too. They say the economy is in recession, less angpow. Not really. Same as last year wut...(for me ler). & the gambling...aiya....not so good this year. Lost money. . . but its ok. my idea of playing is tat if i cannot afford to lose, i wont play. i set an amount im willing to lose, so no hard feelings after losing. winning is a blessing. 

Took 2 days off last week, there goes another two days annual leave (less money on claims). went to work bck on friday, which made me felt kinda good, must earn my pay, the company's paying alot of a simple job like mine. Taking another 3 days leave for my asiaworks training. @@ there goes 5/8 days of my annual leave.....

almost two weeks ago, i broke up wif my former girlfriend. its not been a moment tat i hav not thought abt her, its like every little thing i do, i see, i hear, keeps on reminding me of her.  its bad.  i know. i need to move on. but it's hard. "move along, move along like i know u do ~"

tmrw is my asiaworks advance course. kinda excited to meet up wif frens. but more than ever i want to c those r those willing to pay so much money to join this course ( yea, like im not one myself) :P well, i can honestly say tat the basic was an eye-opener. made me realize a lot of things abt myself. yet, there is stil a reluctance in me to push myself, it is because of the "event" which caused me to slump. i wanna just breakdown. but NO~ im gng to move forward. hope the adv course can help me help myself then. 

until the nxt time~BYE